Dear John,

I got very mixed feelings right now about everything.

I am so sorry, that I haven`t written to you in many days. I am so shamed of my behaviour at last week. I didn`t do ANY workouts AND my Load Day... Well instead of one day, I had it almost 14 days!!!!!!! I really don`t know what`s wrong with me, but I am still trying: I DIDN`T GIVE UP! I`m still in 10 week body change program and now it`s my 5th week going. I did my workouts yesterday and today and I`ll do them tomorrow and day after tomorrow too, so then there`s last weeks wo`s and this weeks wo`s from the 10wbc program.

I do feel happiness about my school stuff. For next 5 weeks (this week including) I am at on-the-job learning passage and I gotta say, it`s great! I`m in kindergarten and in the group of two to three year olds and they are so cute and awesome!

But I got to admit: I am little bit stressed about things in home. As you might know, I got 3 year old daughter and her attitude is awful! I really don`t know what`s wrong, but her behaviour is so bad and embarrassing, that I am even afraid to go to the grocery store with her! We already went to the child health centre and talked to the nurse, but she actually didn`t give me any advices, so maybe I should go to see that nurse again with her.

I always had this motto: Family comes always first! But now I`ve started to think, that of course family comes always first, but I will not drop out school (again!) and I will not let my child`s behaviour and attitude stop me to make my dreams come true! For once I put myself first in line! This far, I`ve always been last in my line of priorities, but it has to stop somewhere and this is it: I won`t let her make me quit my practical nurse studies! AND I will NOT quit 10 Week Body Change program until I am changed and ready for my new life!

Yours,

Jess